choices

if i were to choose...
which one would it be?
would it be the one i dream of?
or the one who dreams of me?
would it be the one i can hurt with my indifference?
or the one who can hurt me with silence?
would it be the one i think of?
or the one whom im sure thinks of me?
would it be the one i love?
or think i love?
or the one who i know loves me?
shall i continue to pursue one who needs me?
because of what i can give?
or shall i be needed because i am me?
what if the tears that is being shed...
is for my absence?
what if the words spoken...
continue to be unspoken...
what can i say?
what can i give?
what if?
why?