eternal summer

being important does not always mean being loved.  oftentimes, our importance to a person stems from their need of acceptance and our own availability to be there when necessity calls for our presence.  the partnership creates a bond that links both to that particular present and sometimes transcends into something else.  in most cases, the link stays for the rest of their existence.

i have never really been a fan of asian series.  those korean/taiwanese melodramatic/comedic shows that have since become a staple to our small screen diet since meteor garden.  in fact, i have not seen one of them in its entirety much is my penchant for more meaty fare.  i have always thought of them as bland, with blank staring faces and long, slow moving panoramic shots of mostly silent characters only showing exotic locales and sweeping emotion provoking music.  that is their style.  for sure, these are popular if not effecting in reshaping our personalities today.  but sometimes, there comes an instance that our own beliefs change or we happen to experience an episode in life that makes us think twice on our norms.

today, i think i stumbled on a realization.

being on a "restday" for my night-shift job, gave me an opportunity to watch online movies and for no apparent reason, i found myself watching a 2006 korean movie entitled "eternal summer".  a film about friendship, love, importance and being one's self.

jonathan the main character is in love with his bestfriend, shane; on the other hand, shane is the boyfriend of the girl jonathan said no to.  shane cannot let any of the two go, jonathan can't say how he feels to shane.  carrie, the girl, knows everything.

so what really happens?  does importance mean love then?  would shane's attachment to jonathan, his only friend of the longest time teach him to love beyond gender?  would jonathan's fear of being shunned suffice more than what he feels?  or would they both sacrifice so as to be true to themselves?  what goes beyond their feelings?

i found myself in the film.  not in one character nor in one situation.  but in the collection of confusing thoughts that shout out the clarity of what the movie feels.  i was jonathan, i was shane, i was even carrie.

i dont really consider myself changed and has suddenly become a fan of these foreign language works, what i do know is that; what i feel and what you feel might just be what we see through the vision of these almond eyed characters we see on the small screen. in fact i'm ready for more.